It's been almost one week now since i've been back from Bangkok. I miss the place.. The aura, the splendour and the wonderful butterfly like feelings that I got in my proverbial heart about this wonderful getaway that unfortunately only lasted for three days would last forever in my memories. I was fortunate enough to be accompanied by this wonderful free spirited kindred soul that has been my best 'buddy' for time immemorial. Well, not to sound really corny and all but I fell in love all over again.. Just felt like cloud nine everywhere and free from everything that binds me to the world that i have chosen to live.
We went to this place called the Grand Palace with a huge... like really huge Buddhist temple where there were wonderful tapestry like painting on the wall... It was really humbling and wonderful to stand witness to the creation of man when they are really motivated especiality in terms of spirituality and love. How do you think the Great Pyramids of Giza was built or even the Taj Mahal or even the gigantic statue of Zeus.... I felt like I was in another world, some place where old beliefs and ancient magic still exists... To put in one word " STARSTRUCK"...
Khao San Rd was very near our accomodation and this place was filled with backpackers of many nationalities.. The Dutch, Londoners, Irish, Japanese give you a whole new ambience especially when you're under the influence of booze at the night club scene.. Hehehe.. ' Booze makes the world go round'.. I started talking in a foreign accent!!! And believe me, thats new.. As my buddy was saying with a smirk " I heard you talking with an accent... (giggle) " :- )
Most of all, I got in touch with my emotional side and felt vulnerable once again.. Funny thing is, I was really comfortable being this person that I started singing in the bathroom.. and that doesn't happen everywhere except when I'm really comfortable. (Shooo... don't tell anyone, yeah..) This angelic buddy that was with me helped me find my other side... I have admired her for her free spiritedness and fresh outlook in life. She has this uncanny ability to crack open my forcefield.. Scary at times but I've always loved her from the minute i set my eyes on her in form six. She is something different from all the monotonousness of this world that I can be really comfortable with and yet not commit too... Like a utopian dream, you know... I'll never stop loving her but perhaps in a different way that is totally platonic and non committal... Unconditional love as I would put it... We are divergent paths on the same plane criss crossing each other at certain timelines making each of us stronger and better... There are a few special people like this that i will always have fond memories of.. I'm gonna miss her when she goes... but i guess thats just the way life is, full of uncertainties and uncharted waters that we will have to wade through to reach the other side.
I felt so immensely depressed when I left this place but I guess there is life waiting for me on the other side. I don't what I felt in love with or when I did but it will leave a lasting impression on me till the day of my passing. It was so real that I felt like I wanted this other life, but I just know it's not meant to be. There is a lot of responsibilities and burden that I'll have to carry out in this life for me to accomplish my mission. We can't be Clark Kent forever.. One day we'll have to assume our roles as Superman and do whats needed of us..
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